I think that I should have included in the previous piece the obvious connection that I left out – about having a glimmer of an understanding of what my mother must be feeling. We’re alike in one way in that even when she was in her mid-sixties she had friends in their 30s who were constantly telling me they were amazed at her energy and youthful outlook (not a quote, just a phrase that comes to mind). And although that “youthful outlook” seems to have shut down, especially in the almost-20-years since my father died, I think I’m starting to understand what it must feel like to still feel the same way inside that you did when you were 20 even though to the outside world you’re quite far away from that.
I had a hint of that tonight. Inside I feel as alive as I did when I was 22. Shit, I’m not gonna go on about this; it ain’t like I’m the first person this has ever happened to.
I’m much older than everyone else in my company. I think I’m the only one there over 40, let alone 50. These people never make me feel old, buddha bless ‘em. Fridays are always a tough day for me because my first call each week is at 7 AM – at least I can do that from home and then I gotta head into the office and I’m always a little bit off on Friday’s because of that earlier start. 6 PM rolls around and there’s usually nothing I’d like better at that point than to drag myself home and sack out for a bit.
Tonight I didn’t have that option. Someone tried to organize the first after-work-drinking-session since I’ve been there and there was no way I wasn’t going to be a part of it. We were going to head to Nirvana, very close to our office, but it’s a tiny place and by 7 PM on a Friday night you couldn’t even squeeze inside. Interestingly enough they put two tables outside for the overflow – and not on the sidewalk, which is very narrow there, they put the tables literally in the street.
Anyway, we walked down a block or two further to a place I’d never heard of, a bar and restaurant on Queens Road called Shore. Foursquare informed me that it was my first lounge bar check-in ever. It’s on the 3rd floor of an office building, it’s a very designed space, everyone else in there seemed under 30, looked like a lot of corporate types letting their hair down after work (though for some reason some guy there was wearing a Ronald McDonald costume, I shit you not, clown shoes, fright wig, the whole nine yards). (And trust me, I may have once upon a time been a VP at an investment bank myself but no one will ever mistake me for a corporate type. I’ve never managed to smooth out my rough edges and I don’t even try any more.)
They have this huge outdoor terrace and the place was pretty damned packed at 7:30 (and beyond) though they did manage to find a table for our group. The bar menu was at least 12 pages long and we’re not talking Wanchai “sex on the beach” shooters; we’re talking extensive wine list, lots of high end distilled spirits, a page of various martinis and so on. In other words, this ain’t the usual kind of place that I go to. And it was nice. Really. And I didn’t feel out of place there, maybe because I was with a large group. Maybe if I’d walked in there alone I would have felt differently. But we sat there drinking, joking, comparing tattoos, walking out to the terrace for the occasional smoke. As tired as I was, as old as I felt in that place, it was energizing to be there.
Later, I went to a different sort of party, the relocation party for Beansbox. I’ve known these people for years and it’s nice that I can finally use them in their professional capacity and even nicer that they’re doing a great fucking job and blowing away everyone else in my company with the quality of their work. What they’ve done is they’ve rented what was a shop on a tiny little side street in Sheung Wan. The downstairs has this huge blackboard and is filled with Macs, the upstairs has a great bookshelf filled with books actually worth reading and some comfortable nooks and crannies – the kind of office that doesn’t feel like an office and one that I suspect people actually enjoy going to every day.
But honestly, by 9 PM, I was feeling the burn. I’d been up since 6, the day had been a whirlwind of activity, and it was all I could do to get myself home at that point.
Sorry, thought I knew where I wanted to go with this when I sat down to write it, kind of lost the plot I guess. Maybe it’s just giving me something to do to force myself to stay up so that I don’t wake up at 6 AM tomorrow too. If you found this post boring, no need to comment to let me know.